On Wednesday, Britney Spears went before a judge about the status of her conservatorship and shared horrifying details about the conservatorship that has controlled her life and finances for 13 years. speaking for over 20 minutes, she described the conservatorship by her father, Jamie Spears, as "abusive "

"Ma'am, I'm not here to be anyone's slave," she said according to E.T. (open in new tab), adding that when she was a performer, "it wasn't good, I was Great." She continued, " I'm angry, I can't sleep, I'm depressed."

"I want change and I will continue to want change. I deserve change," she told Judge Brenda Penny. 'I want my life back. It's been 13 years and that's enough." She pointed out that instead of being forced to publicly attend the twice-weekly therapy sessions mandated by the conservatorship (which she called "embarrassing and demotivating"), she would have a therapist come to her home and she could choose her own attorney instead of a court-appointed attorney.

Ultimately, she hopes to end her conservatorship "without being assessed" and is even considering suing her family.

The singer noted that she did not return to speak in court because "the last time I spoke to you, you made me feel like I was dead, like I didn't matter." She then adopted a "fake it 'til you make it" constitution to cope with the trauma, but she feels she was in "denial" and "shock" and still cries "every day."

According to CNN (opens in new tab), the 39-year-old singer also revealed some intimate details from what she has endured over the past decade. 'I want to get married and have a baby. They told me I couldn't get married. I have an IUD inside me and this so called team of people won't allow me to go to the doctor to have it removed because they don't want me to have any more children. This conservator is doing me harm.

She also revealed that she is not allowed to "go anywhere unless I see someone at the office every week" and is not allowed to ride alone in her boyfriend Sam Asgari's car.

Spears said she was forced to work without a break, especially during a 2018 residency in Las Vegas. And later, when she publicly announced her hiatus, she said she was forced to take lithium. It's a strong drug," he said, "and if you take it for more than five months, it can make you psychotic. I felt like I was drunk. She also claimed that her father once forced her into rehab

after an argument at a rehearsal.

She also claimed that her family, especially her father, did not help her through any difficult situations. My family did nothing for me," she said, "and I cried on the phone with my father for hours. She said, "Everything I had to do, [my father] approved. My whole family did nothing for me."

"I deserve a couple of years off. I have an open mind and feel it is safe to talk about this. I feel ostracized, bullied, left out, and alone. I am tired of feeling alone. I deserve to have children and have the same rights."

"I truly believe this conservatorship is abusive," she said, adding unequivocally, "I want it to end."

After the adjournment, Jamie Spears' attorney issued a statement on behalf of her client: "I am so sorry to see my daughter suffer. Mr. Spears loves his daughter and misses her very much," E.T. reported.

Jamie Spears was appointed permanent conservator of his daughter in 2008 for undisclosed reasons, but he often pointed to her mental health. Last year, Spears' attorney, Samuel Ingham III, filed a motion to suspend Jamie's holdings in the estate of approximately $60 million. This has been an ongoing battle for Spears, but the growing #FreeBritney movement and the Hulu documentary Framing Britney Spears have recently brought it to public attention.