Content Warning: Pregnancy Loss

Victoria's Secret model Taylor Hill has revealed for the first time publicly that she experienced pregnancy loss about 3 years ago when she was engaged to her husband Daniel Fryer.

Hill explained that revealing this vulnerable experience is a way to honor Tate, a dog who sadly passed away from cancer last year and was there for her while she was experiencing this, and decided to talk about it with Jay Shetty for a conversation on his On Purpose podcast.

"In grieving his loss, I'm grieving the shared experience we had and learning how to deal with something without him when he was there for me throughout that time in my life," she explained.

Hill continued to detail her experience of pregnancy loss. "It was a really strange situation that I had a miscarriage," she said. "I had an IUD. I had it for about 3 years, so I was not actively trying to get pregnant, I did not want to get pregnant at all. I was engaged to my husband, but probably wasn't going to start a family for a while. I was not in my head to get pregnant.

Speaking about getting pregnant during an Iud, it occurs in less than 1% of cases, according to WebMD, but Hill said he did not "understand" it.

"It's like something crazy happens to someone and 'it's never going to happen to me,'" she said. "It happened to me, I got pregnant with an IUD, and I was shocked. I was sad. I did not want to get pregnant, I was not ready to get pregnant. I didn't understand what it meant to be pregnant with an IUD. I didn't know what that meant. I did not know what my journey with this pregnancy would look like. I was so scared. I was afraid."

Fryer was not able to travel to the US with Hill because he was British and COVID travel restrictions were in place, so when she found out, he wasn't there. At this stage, she relied heavily on the comfort that Tate offered.

When she went to the doctor, they told her that pregnancy, in her words, was "50/50 of whether you do this or not" due to the environment created by the IUD.

She was scared to have children at that stage of life but she also wanted to have a family with someone she wanted to have. Knowing that she was going to get married, she eventually put herself in a spiritual space where she accepted that if the pregnancy "stuck around" she would have children.

But in about 10 weeks, "I start to see what looks like fresh blood, and that's what [the doctor] told me to look out for, and it's like an early sign of what eventually becomes a miscarriage."

She went on and became emotional "It started to happen and I'm alone at home. At least I have Tate, and I call my husband, just devastated because I know this is about to happen to me, and it was really painful for him and for the two of us.

Hill explained that when she wiped her tears, this was the first time she had spoken publicly about it, so it was as if she was "processing" it all again.

She felt a strong sadness for not feeling ready to be a mother, and for not being ready to be a mother. She continued to share how she dealt with the experience emotionally, including the internal conflicts she felt between herself and her husband.Ultimately, she said she found some comfort in knowing that she was not alone in this experience — unfortunately, between 10 and 20 percent of pregnancies end in miscarriage, according to March of Dimes.